Reflecting life ! In exact 3 month i „survived“ already 30 years of my life in this body.
I just remembered people said for 10 years ago you will never reach 30 if you live like you do 😀 .In a fact my life really changed a lot the last 7 years.
So I began to question after all this different i´ s what I have been in the last years who I will become or will be in the next years and what I really want.
I achieved already so many things in my life, I did more than 200 sports started to be professional athlete ect. . With 23 I had a big backproblem in the lower
back L5S1, I couldnt walk without pain for quite 1.5years, but I still tried to train a lil bit. In this time I had 2 times some strange experiences with my heart by
lying relaxed on a couch, my heart got cold and it started to beat very fast for quite one minute. So when I went to the doctor he said:” you got a heart problem (ah really)”
and I should stop triathlon otherwise I really could get serious problems. He said I got biscubid heart plate but this was not the reason for the heartrush which i found out by
myself lil bit later.
it was because I stopped training from many hours on one day to zero and ordinary you need to train down slowly because of your big heart .First overall sport was my life I was always happy by training between 3-6 hours or more a day. It was more playing with the body then to achieve a status to be good in one thing consciously. I had days where I was training 12h a day 3 days in a row so I went always through my limits and it was mostly easy because I did it with happiness and everything what makes you happy or inspire you its easy for you. Subconsciously of course I was looking for attention which I didn’t got from the person what I like to get, but this I found out much later. So when I became a lil bit less crazy with all my activity´s my way was more researching about truth about real health and the mind, because I found out there is so much mindmanipulationbecause of impressing people and making money. So I came more in this spirituality what I denied in the beginning, because I was trained to be “rational logical” from the higher technical school. but how deeper I came into these topics how more I have seen theconnection to everything and it began to make much more sense then everything what I knew before. Living this new reality was still something what wasn’t easy even in my age because people start this way mostly 20 years later, so I had not many people to talk about this. So I was mostly the youngest in all seminars what I went to get more knowledge and experience. this brought me to more truth and more possibility´s but also more pain, because when I was a machine in the system I never really felt the pain and I didn’t felt the pain in training, heat or cold I did this crazy trainings to feel myself so I was kinda numb. so I would say every sports athlete just wants this pain to feel themself, it´s like with eating spices when you already eat a lot you don’t have any problems and you can increase the dosis all the time but how more you are sensitive how less you can eat it. In the last years I got so sensitive that I can´t eat hot spices anymore also when I shower I need to increase slowly the heat and 10 years back I was bathing by 60 degrees because I loved to heat up the body it was totally relaxing for me also sunbathing for many hours or playing 4 h without break beachvolleyball by 38 degrees.so I would describe myself as a machine which went to his boarders to start feeling a difference of this numbness.so when I got the heartopening via a karmaseminar I started feeling much more and I just thought it was much easier without feeling anything. One time I was sitting infront of the tv and I saw someone did a frontflip with the motorcycle for the first time and I saw the happiness and the crowed where screaming and suddenly I started to cry I become so emotional and was happy for him, but in the same time my mind the machoego was thinking I hope nobody sees me that I am crying infront of the tv. Because even I growed up with the mindset don’t show feelings, be a strong man.so this was just the beginning of a totally new life. I could write much more about different experiences what happened but this I will write then in my book 😉
So from an egoistic ignorant sportmachine to a human being I mostly never believed anything just by someone’s talks, I always have to experience by myself but I got more open-minded and stopped judging before knowing. So my aim was I want to get fully healed and more powerful so I came from the extreme sport into extreme spirituality and did many seminars and meditation till I finally invented my own things.
For 2 years ago I achieved this state of totally peace after a 4 days heart meditation. And I didn’t like to do anything anymore.
There is nothing to do then just to be, but the monkey mind always talks because of the conditioning and people think they need to do one thing to have a sense in life. But when you look into nature no animal or plant is doing anything special, they just live their life and play so why do we think that we need to achieve anything. Its condition to work for a system, we got teached in school to think linear and this kill our creativity and our real being.Everyone on earth is a genius if they allow the person to think differently and get teached by himself. Everything is inside of us but we are always outside and wondering why we can’t achieve more peace or love by buying things or people. The media controls your habit to buy things what you don’t want to impress people what you even don’t like and this just to fulfill for a short time your inner emptiness.
So I said I will stop breakdancing and people where wondering, because it was already my life to be a bboy or hiphop or whatever this ego society is judging. For me it just made no more sense to train every day 3hours to get ”better”. Because you are always the same you are always perfect it doesn’t matter if you know more mathematics or more moves, this nonsense comes just from the judging mind. Only one week later I got 6 phone calls on one day to do shows. I was thinking: is life testing me now 😀 of course I did the shows, but they change what happened was, that I was happier even when I just went sometime to the training. I let my body lead and invented new flips very easily without the pressure that I have to do something. So for me I found out you can train 10-15 years hard and you will become a master in whatever you want. When you strongly belive in yourself or you justfollow and trust your heart/soulway everything will become much easier and faster. And this I experienced in many ways.There is no law of attraction its law of manifestation 😉 .
But I was now on this state of mind that I don’t want to be anyone or do anything I just want to live freely.so I changed again and gifted and sold all my stuff in Austria to become more free to go wherever I want without thinking that I have to go back. But I also kneweverything in life is mindset and I am the creator of my reality so at least I need to set alittle goal for a direction without the pressure that I need to achieve it. So I said ok I want to find out more about human potential, Atlantis and Lemuria. I already mastered my body with just eating “light” and didn’t eat or drink for 30 days and played also with the matrix field by healing every illness, controlling and moving magnetic body fields, pet wild animals etc. so I said lets study pyrokinesis, levitation, telekinesis, ect. And all the other possibility’s what are still not well studied and not that known in our society. To show the people that we can do much more than the “normal” person think what we can do and that everyone with a little bit effort and trust also can do it. In the last month I already achieved to manifest the wind in my direction 5 times or stopped the rain so I feel more and more connected with the nature what made me happy.;)
But this is still not the happiness what I want, I want to become the child what we all have been. Like being happy without a reason, experiencing everything like new, being in the moment, because otherwise I will be also just happy by achieving things and every desire what you don’t achieve will make pain and I already lived to long in this paincircle. Pain is nothing bad it’s a teacher because it shows what you are not. Ordinary it gives you sensations from a situation what is already healed and it can lead you also to deep understanding of your mindset. but I was thinking it’s not the right thing now for pain I have experienced it already so many times I am ready to be a master. But one deep pain can enlighten you more then 10 years meditation. We all have some blind spots (deep fears, problems) what we don’t like to face so we don’t see them and like to avoid them instead of integration. I am thankful that someone reminded me on my problem so I have the choice to grow through facing it.
So I am ready and here to be a master and manifest freedom and happiness. That sounds maybe weird for your ego because everyone belives that he is better than the others and how can he say that he is a master or even play god. It’s our conditioning which don’t allows to accept that some reach a “higher state” because it shows to you that you are weak and consciously you don’t like to be weak, but you act always like a victim by judging others because you even don’t allow yourself to be stronger then everyone and you got more attacked from other people when you say you are strong happy and you love your life. Like Bruce Lee said when you got the ball you will get attacked, so many people are afraid, but just give a shit and follow the things what you want in life you will find a way if you really want it. You have about 60000 thoughts a day so you better start thinking the good once if you want to achieve it 😉 One day people will find out that we are all Gods working for one collective consciosness.
People spend their whole lives freaming of becoming happier , living with more vitality and having an abundance of passion and yet don’t see the importance of taking even then min a month to write out their goals and to think deeply about the meaning of their lives. Make a dreambook where do you see yourself in some years, with pictures ect.look at it every day for some minutes and feel and see that you already have it do this for one month and then let it go 😉 enjoy the process
MAKE THE FIRST STEP …IT’S THE HALF WAY!
What would you do today if it would be your last?How do you will treat people (family, friends, unknown) around you?This questions have the power to change your life and bring will start focusing on the meaningful things and stop wasting time and energy. Don’t accept a life of mediocrity when you hold such infinite potential within the fortress of your mind. Tape into your greatness it’s your birthright to be a genius!!!
Your everyday mantra could be like: I am more than I appear to be, all the world´s strength and power rests in me!!!i love my life,I love my body, I am happy, I am healthy ,I am strong, I am flexible. I AM READY TO CHANGE NOW !!!
I am responsible for what I see, I choose the feelings I experience and I decide upon the goal I would achieve, and everything that seem to happen to me I ask for and receive as I have asked.
Life is a game you should know if you just play a figure or you want to become the player! Wish you all the best to live your creativity and the REAL you!! GOOD LUCK and enjoy life with PEACE LOVE FUN UNITY FREEDOM and HARMONY